I have to apologize for not posting in quite awhile and it isn't because I wasn't accomplishing things that would have been fun to share, but I had one issue that left me quaking in my boots and caused me so much anxiety that everything else seemed small and trite.
First let me tell you that I live in a state of trepidation over certain issues.
Let me briefly explain....2 years ago I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and with a few little pills and a good diet I had it under control.....until last month when suddenly the pills stopped working! At that point my doctor decided that insulin was the way to go. Well with the new Flexpen delivery system one would think "no problem"...hmmmm, except for one tiny thing. I have a NEEDLE PHOBIA! Yep I have been sitting here for over a month staring at that pen and shaking. Now if I knew anyone else who uses a Flexpen that I could emulate maybe that would help but no dice.
And in all fairness the nurse walked me through it and even stuck the darned thing in me and I didn't feel a thing! So what's the problem? To do it to myself seems outrageous, like a scene from a horror movie.
The worst part is I know there are so many people out there dealing with issues a heck of a lot worse than this. But no matter how much I remind myself of that fact I still feel nauseous just thinking about injecting myself.
So I thought just maybe if I posted about it and put it out there rather than hide from the issue it will give me the courage I need.
I guess now that I have made it public I will have to face it and get over it or live with the shame of clucking like a chicken wherever I go...:(
Thanks for listening and please send courageous thoughts my way!